Depression and Anxiety
A blackening burden and a ray of sun in disguise. Depression is not wanting to leave your bed, not wanting to go out and see people that love you. Depression is knowing your loved and not seeing it at all Depression is picking up that lighter to hope your pain will go away. Or popping that pill to try and sleep or forget. Depression is blackening burden or what shows you a ray of sun at a peak.
Anxiety is being scared to open up, trusting no one. Anxiety is wondering when the attack is going to end Anxiety is more than just going into a turtle shell and being scared to come out. Anxiety is a burden but when it seizes it's another ray of sunshine.
My anxiety and depression has been a spiraling adventure through the good and the bad. I've tried the therapists, I've tried crying it away, I've tried forgetting about it through drugs and alcohol but nothing works. I've tried self harm, but It takes more that that. It takes ones own will power. I've over come a lot in the past two years suffering with my own demons throughout my entire life, but they've made me stronger, more beautiful like that ray of sunshine. I have more ups than downs these days but it's still there, lingering like a thunderstorm that can start in an instant and you don't know when the sun will be back again. But it makes one stronger more beautiful and when we're older it'll help guide us through the heart ache and the happiness. Depression and anxiety take time to heal but there's always a rainbow at the end of a storm.
Jackii