Depression
I don't really know when my depression started.. maybe early junior high? Maybe later, maybe earlier.. I'm not sure. I know in junior high, I was part of the "popular kids" group, but that's only because my best friend was their... leader so to say, he was nice, the others weren't, I had another friend in that group, friends since the day we met, why did he turn on me? I don't know, that was over 10 years ago and I still don't know, but he was the prime key to my depression, and my anger, I was hurt, that everyday I had to go to a place I hated, and see people who just laughed and made fun of me, so I learned to handle myself, by myself, I cut, I cried, and a lot of people would think it made me stronger. In a way yes that's true.. it made me a stone, I didn't feel a thing, I didn't feel pain or anger, but things happened and I started to feel again, years later, I met someone and they helped, long story short that didn't work, now, over five years later, I'm alone, I'm almost by myself if this.. fight. I still have moments of depression, and they suck, but I have amazing friends who I know will be there for me.. and over all, yes it has made me stronger.. but at the same time, it's made me realize I can't do this on my own. Like I said, I still have my moments.. I'm not sure if they'll ever go away, but my story is only being told so I can let someone else know they aren't alone, you're never alone. I've learned that. I'm stronger because of it.. -Krebbs